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Wow wow Wow! It's been four years since I last posted on here. So much has changed in my life. I remember writing about my depression I was suffering from, and how I was struggling with Life. I'd never felt so ill before, it was an awful time and one I struggled to understand.  I became another person, a person who had no life in them, who felt 40 years older than they were. A person who felt numb and couldn't see past how the illness was making me feel. I was ashamed, I felt I had let my family down.  I was "supposed" to be a strong wife and a dedicated confident mother. There was no way "I" could suffer from depression.  The realisation hit me hard. I was no different to anyone else. I'm human after all. Accepting my illness was hard, but the hardest thing was having to put on a smile and pretend everything was okay. No one asked me to do that,  I just didn't want to accept I was ill. There was a stigma to depression and I didn't want ...

Last Friday my hubby surprised me with a gift. He went out and came back with a brand new bike for me. I had done nothing but talk about getting a bike these past few weeks, as my sister and her family go bike riding at the weekends. I can join them now, and we've been having so much fun. I love my new bike, infact I don't want to go out without it now. Getting to work and back is so much easier. The roads are scary but I'm getting more confident. Having a bike has helped  me feel young again, and I feel like I have a new lease of life.  I'm really looking forward to this summer, lots of days out with full of adventure as I go cycling with the family.

I really do have to sort my things out and de-clutter my house. The thing I need to get rid of most is my books. The thing is I can't do it.... I have so many and although I have read most of them and may not read them again, although I do hope one day I will. I just can't seem to bag them up and give them away. I am like this with everything, clothes, the kids toys, everything!!! Why I'm this I don't know? Hubby on the other hand wishes I would sort my stuff out. Is anyone else like this?

These are some Sackboy/girls I made for family for xmas. I really enjoyed making them. I especially enjoyed doing the girls, although making their hair was really testing my patience at times. But once I got into the swing of it I was fine. Thankfully my family love them. :)

As I've said before I love knitting. If I'm feeling peed off and anxious I go and knit, it always helps to relax me and makes me happy (when I'm not dropping stitches!) Here's some things I've made, all of these are my first attempts, so I can only get better with experience. :) My first Sackboy My First Puppy My first xmas tree decoration I have made more things, but I can't post them here till after xmas, as they have been made as xmas presents. :)

In a couple of months, I'll have reach the grand middle age of 40. Why don't I feel excited about this though? I find it hard to believe, I'm actually going to be 40!! They say life starts at 40, how does it? Since my eldest son moved out a year ago, and who now lives with his girlfriend, I feel so old. It's like I'm now where my parents were, the old fogey. Yet, I know deep down that's not true. I don't see other people in their 40' 50's or 60's as old. Yet I see myself as old lol. Weird hey? I do feel a responsibility since my boys have all grown up to act in a respsonsible adult way. When they were small, I felt like a kid myself and loved to join in their games. I was always playing their board games with them, hide and seek etc. I do miss those days. They were fun. I know I have all that to look forward to in the future with my future Granchildren. I'm wondering, do all mums feel like this as their children grow into young adults? Lookin...

Meditation, is one of the best things you can do for relaxation and peace of mind. I used to think it was just sitting as still as you can. But there are so many different ways to meditate. Gardening is meditation Painting & sketching is meditation Knitting, sewing, cross stitch, crochet, is meditation House work is meditation. Anything that causes you to become focused, relaxed and to be away somewhere in your 'zone', is meditation. For me, knitting is my number one way to meditate. Wow it makes me feel great! How do you meditate?

I really do love knitting, especially since I've learnt to read patterns. I'm practically knitting everyday now. I kind of feel lost without it. I know that knitting has really helped me to get through my depression since I took it up again just a couple of months ago. In fact since I started knitting I feel like it has helped me to progress faster. I'm knitting things for xmas now and I'm having so much fun. I think I may just end up turning this into a knitting blog. lol. A great forum with a lovely community. Phoenix Knitting Forums

I've decided to do this post as I want to reach out to people who are suffering with depression. I myself have gone through depression, at this moment I am coming out of it, it's been a long dark lonely phase of my life. I believe it started in 2007, one thing seemed to happen one after another. In the end I just couldn't cope and my depression became full blown. I tried so hard to battle it on my own. When I first realised I was suffering with depression, my first reaction was panic, as I knew it meant something was wrong. I was supposed to be this strong loving wife to my husband and a strong and supportive loving mother to my children. On the outside I could hide it and pretend all was okay, where as on the inside I was a complete and utter nervous wreck who was crying out for help. The biggest mistake I did to cope was to use alcohol. I used it to hide away from my problems. It was my way of shutting it out. Of course alcohol can make you feel good at the time, but it...

I recently took up knitting again after a long break. I had never been able to read patterns before, until I found this lovely forum Phoenix Knitting Forums The community there is very welcoming and they are ready to help anyone in need. I've never loved knitting so much. Now I am learning to read patterns, I just finished my first project from following a pattern. I chose Aunt Maggie Slippers and I did them following this tutorial Aunt Maggie Slippers I actually found this pattern on Raverly.com which is a brilliant website. My first attempt was diabolical as my slipper ended up 4 inches longer than it should have been. However I am not one to give up, so I made another attempt straight after, and it took me just 3 hours to do the fiirst one, and then today just an hour and 15 minutes for the second one. Here they are they, and now I can't wait to try a new pattern!

After being unwell for a while and now feeling tip top. I have taking up jogging. My sister mentioned it the other week, and we began walking/jogging to work. My sis isn't able to carry on with it at the moment, she may do at a later date hopefully. But I have carried on. I've always admired people who run, seeing them jog past in the street I always wished I had the guts to do it myself. But my chatter box would constantly appear and convince me that I couldn't do that! And that I'd look nothing like these really cool runners, but that I would look like an idiot. Well, I have pulled all my strength together and I refuse to give into my low self-esteem which has always stopped me from doing things. Good bye low self-esteem!!! Hello the new stronger me. :) So, now I jog regulalry. I'm a beginner and it's going to take sometime for me to be able to build my strength up. The main thing is I am enjoying myself and I am feeling the benefits. I can't wait to jog ...

This weekend has been a fantastic one. I went to Camber Sands on Saturday with my Son and his partner, and Joss Bay today with my sister and her family. It was fantastic. It was our first visit to Joss Bay since we were children, and it was beautiful I love Camber Sands for the waves, they have more energy in them and are more exciting, but Joss Bay was gorgeous. It had a couple of Rock pools, and was a sandy beach with a gorgeous ocean. Perfect for Children to make San castles and to explore the rock pools, also perfect for adults who want to sunbath and swim. I am looking forward to going again one day.

This weekend has been a fantastic one. I went to Camber Sands on Saturday with my Son and his partner, and Joss Bay today with my sister and her family. It was fantastic. It was our first visit to Joss Bay since we were children, and it was beautiful I love Camber Sands for the waves, they have more energy in them and are more exciting, but Joss Bay was gorgeous. It had a couple of Rock pools, and was a sandy beach with a gorgeous ocean. Perfect for Children to make San castles and to explore the rock pools, also perfect for adults who want to sunbath and swim. I am looking forward to going again one day.

Well, here I am again after a while away. Been on Facebook playing some games and boy do they get addicting. Well, I'm not wasting my spring and summer on facebook games. ;) Facebook games are a winter thing when you can't go out. I have two new hobbies which I really love. Not done much in the way of painting lately. Got to sort my room out to make more space. I have to be really brutal and get rid of a majority of my books. I love books and this is going to be so hard, some of the books I love but have been sitting on my shelves for a few years and not sure when I will read them again. So will be giving most to the Demelza Childrens Hospice Charity. Okay, so my two new hobbies are cooking and gardening which also includes indoor plants. Hubby and I went and bought 10 new house plants, they are gorgeous. I'll list them later and put pics on here. My favourite so far is our Oriental Lily, she smells gorgeous and is so pretty!!! I love cooking now and so will be trying som...

Well, we've gotten out of the sideshow statue hobby. We sold them all and now have to start a new hobby. This hobby is painting, for me it's acryllic, oil and water paints. While, hubby is into air brushing. I will delve into this myself eventually. Atm, I'm back in my reading phase. I'm into self help and spiritual books. I'm taking a break from Facebook games to devote more time to reading. There's nothing like sitting down with a good book and getting lost within the pages. Another thing I'm into lately is Gardening. I'm really enjoying doing my garden up. :)

I said you were in for a treat and here he is!! :) For you who are in this hobby that is who truly appreciate these models. This baby is 32 inches tall, and weighs about 90lbs. He is our largest model and my favourite. :) To view the pictures in their best form, click the pcitures to blow them up to full size. Another treat is our newest model - A Sideshow piece. The Alien Queen from Aliens. We're just waiting for another part of this model to be released and delivered. Can you guess what it is????

Here's some more models we've collected. I absolutely adore the HULK. He is huge!!!!! :) Hubby loves the Captain America. Me on the other hand think he's okay, but he's not my favourite, however he is still a great piece to have. If you are i nto this collection then you're in for a treat with my next post which will be posted above this one. :) But for now, first lets get this lady out of the way. This is one of hubby's favourite pieces (I wonder why?........ :p), The Black Queen Jean Gray from the X Men. To view the pictures in their best form, click the pcitures to blow them up to full size.

Hi, After giving up the plane hobby for a while we have found ourselves with a new one. I didn't even know the things we have just began to collect even existed. That was until hubby asked me if we could buy a Hell Boy Model which in the circle of collectors is known as a Sideshow Premium Format Statue. So being as I love my hubby to bits and find it hard to say no to him, simply because he's gorgeous and is my life, I said yes. :) So it started of with one statue, our Hell boy and soon we got another and another. Now we have a bit of a collection going on. Seeing as we really are movie addicts as you saw in a previous post. This hobby seems to fit us well and is also an investment for our children. Most of the statues are not cheap. Anyway, I just wanted to tell you about it, and show you some pics. These are some of our Models. Not all are Sideshow, some of the models we collect are made by DC Direct and Bowen. When we go to London one of our first stop offs is Forbidden Pla...

Yesterday we got our eagarly awaited parcel from the usa, Coraline on Blu-ray. We opted for the 3D version, and was blown away by the movie. The 3D version was amazing. The colour is reduced while watching it in this format, but we can opt for the 2D version when watching it next. I love Blu-ray, it gives so much more to a movie, quality of picture, colour and love that when you get a good Blu-ray movie, images are popping out from the screen. I don't usually go for modern Children's animated movies. I much prefer the old classics I grew up with, such as Wizard of Oz etc.. But Coraline blew me away, I'll be keeping this one. For all ages, however small children may find it a bit frightening. Some Ghosties in which one was looking particularly scary. Not in a horrible way, but in a real sad way. 5/5

So, I can't talk about Model Airplanes anymore :( So I'm gonna talk about our new hobby, which is about Movies. Above is a picture of Joe our son standing next to our 106 inch Projector screen. This for us is the only way to watch movies, as we have our own Cinema at home, and on the screen is lovely Johnny Depp! :)